fuck money

so basically, i have no one to talk to and hopefully no one sees this.



well today started off a great day, then everyone seemed to be sad so that kind of put me in a glum... until that is i went to costco and got a whole bunch of free samples! i haven't been there in so long, mainly because my parents said that it wasn't in our budget- come on now costco is all about buying hella food for hella cheap- i guess not! anyways i went through the isles thinking to myself that i should get this and that and blahblahblahblah.. i looked at there prices and i was like daang i should get this, its hella cheap it was $10 i put that in the little cart. and all of a sudden i started to think about shopping, and how unfair it was that i couldn't buy expensive clothes like everyone else who shops like every other week. so in my mind i started making a list, since my birthday was coming up... i was thinking hey i deserve it! after that we fell in line to buy the food it totalled to be $200, cool, i guess. we went back to our van- aka the bucket- and went back to our lower middle class home. i know i shouldn't be complaining about where i live and how much my parents scrafice for me, but can't help it... its in my nature. technically its kind of their fault because they are very trusting people, putting there trust in people that shouldn't be trusted! okay okay back to my story, next thing i knew the doorbell rung and my sister opened to the door and it was a guy who was asking for my mom. she said to tell him she wasn't here i already knew what was happening.. a person trying to collect money! well, not this time, this time they gave something to us! i took the paper from my sister it was a summons my mom was being summoned by the creditcard company for not paying the bills. this happened before-- our power was cut off because of that same reason.. i never knew it was actually that bad. you know all parents complain about money-- but its a reality now, we're actually broke.